Did I ever tell you guys that sometimes I have double standards? It's true.
For instance, Hubby and I have this rule about not eating in bed. Ever.
But today I couldn't help it!
To give myself some credit, I normally don't. I really am pretty good. Today I caved though. I put our little girl down for a nap and pulled out a chocolate protein bar (which is the closet I get to a real chocolate bar these days -darn it) and a glass of milk. Nothing sounded better than curling up in bed, turning on one of my favorite "I Love Lucy" episodes and munching on my imaginary twix.
So I did.
I know, I know, it's terrible.
But I tell myself that being the Mom comes with certain privileges right?
Please tell me I am not the only one.
If you haven't noticed, I have been MIA for the past month or so.
For a lot of reasons.
Life has been hectic for one. We moved here to Boston, Hubby started a new job AND law school. We didn't have any of our own furniture so we have been sleeping on the floor and made cardboard bookshelves (which are surprisingly sturdy).
Back in Virginia I had a really awesome group of friends. I mean really awesome. I got together with at least one of them every day. Seriously. They all had kids close to my daughters age, and our husbands got along great too. I couldn't have asked for anything better. And then we moved. We are slowly meeting people here but it's not the same. Since Hubby is in law school and working I rarely see him. I guess I have been a little lonely if I am completely honest. I know it will pass. I will make new friends and get used to the new place but it's just different ya' know? My poor friends in Virginia are probably getting a little annoyed with me. I call, text, and skype with them all the time. And I am beginning to notice that I am the only one calling them. Are you trying to tell me something guys? Maybe three times a day is a bit much?
Mostly, my heart aches for my little girl. I just about loose it every time she asks to play with her old friends. It is unbelievably hard to say "I'm so sorry honey, but we can't play with your friends today. They don't live close by" or to watch her try and hug them through the computer.
Getting our regular date nights in has been tough too. Any law school wives out there with suggestions? Finding a minute together at all is tough let alone time for a date.
Also, I am incredibly intimidated by all of you. Yes, you. You are all such wonderful bloggers, writers, photographers, and so creative! I am not so good at any of those. I have a terrible camera, am completely clueless when it comes to anything computer/blogging related and not a great writer.
And here is why:
I am not funny.
(You have no idea how hard it is for me to admit that)
I can't tell you how long I have struggled with this either. It has taken me 22 years but I have finally accepted it.
I am not funny.
You see, my family is hilarious. My Dad is the best story teller alive and can get a crowd rolling on the floor in 5 minutes. My sisters are right up there with him and one sister in particular does an awesome job or showing her sense of humor on her blog. But not me. I am just not funny. Doesn't every family have one of those? Well, in my family it's me. I'm the odd one in every sense of the word. I am taller than all the girls. I refuse to take medicine and live on the east coast. I hate coke and am the only one who can't tell a good joke. I have wanted so badly to be funny my whole life but I'm not. I'm like Al Borland from Home Improvement.
Let me prove to you how not funny I am. When I attempt to tell a joke, I usually get to the punch line and look at the person and wait for the expected laughter. 9 times out of 10 though, they look at me and go "...uh huh" or "go on". I then sink into my chair and say "never mind".
The only time my husbands laughs at me is when I am mad. Apparently, I am hilarious then. Which just makes me more mad.
Still not convinced? Read my old blog posts. I tried to be funny in every single one of them. Looking back I don't even think they are funny. Now that's just embarrassing.
So, long story short, I haven't been blogging lately because I am a little lonely, not able to date much and coming to grips with the fact that I am not funny. Or a good blogger.
That is a load off my shoulders!
But I am still here. I will get going again. I just need some motivation. My strategy right now is to not look at anyones's blog. Because if I do I start thinking "Wow this is amazing....wow this makes my stuff look like crap" So please don't be offended that I haven't been commenting lately.
It's a compliment really.
I have a few ideas floating around in my head on how to get date nights going again and a few changes to my regular posting format. Is that even what it's called? Told you, clueless.
Thanks for your patience!
Be back soon.